Im feeling confused....mind now is mix up! Screwed! well...i duno...Im just moody....haiz....I'm starting to lose the strength within myself

It has been an enjoyable 5 months till the end of NDP'09. We had so much fun together and our weekend(sat) burned too. Our perspire and dirty smelly shirt after a hard day has all finally over. Be it NSF, regular, Encik or officers....we have come together and foster the strong friendship. Well, NDP has ended. And all of us will be reporting back to their respective workcenter for normal work and duties. Talking about work, hmmmm.....i think my skill and knowledge are lacking behind and slacking too much. I think is time for me to go back to the basic. YES...BASIC!!! argh...but you know....aircraft system sometimes are complicated...headache.!

Hmm...actually right now,my feeling is complicated. I don't know how to describe but...i also not comfortable sharing it here. My heart is going to explode soon!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!! hopefully later evening go jogging can help cure my inner emotion. Jog and jog....forget everything and no worries.

Oh yeah. thanks Infra team(NDP) for the splashing the bucket of water on me on my birthday. We were supposed to wash the F1 garage but end up playing splashing of water at one another. Haha...it was so fun and all of us getting wet. THanks Kelly, Huiyu and sharon for the dinner and that piece of cake. Appreciated :) well, Monday is coming soon and time to get back to work. Boring days are coming and work hard!!!

WOw...actually it's been so long since i last blog. Well, i really hope to meet up everyone soon. Time flies and year end is coming. Still not sure if i still be around by the end of the year but if i do leave....i will certainly miss everyone. 9th August is coming and yes... it's our Nation's 44th birthday. 44 years of independence and 44 years in the making. Just when the date are near, i feel my national identity is getting stronger and stronger. Cause... this is the land i grow up from, making new friends, and everything. Each time i see the flag fly high....i will lift up my head high up and in my heart, i am truly proud to be a Singaporean. Most of my friend think i am too a pro govt. But i think....one should look at how things really should work and what is best for them. If not, end of the day, we are the one really suffering. For the past few months, a new friend had given me a new hope and happiness. She had brighten up my days, given me strength. However, we are many distance apart. I enjoy talking to her and have many things to tell her too. Yes! Bewitched, bothered and bewildered or maybe it is a dream after all. Many things will change and i do believe in destiny. Well, destiny or not...time will tell too. I don't know actually...but i carried a heavy heart and try to live happy as i can. I should step out of my box and welcome a New Ivan.